dont worry im still alive.

Sooo... Hello again.

I know I haven't been here since forever but..

Just a quick update though..

Have you ever felt creeped out by what you wrote in the past? 

Be it a poem, a tweet, or in my case... blog posts? (don't forget your old pictures-those are actually the worst). 

Speaking of which, I just took a glance of my old posts aaannnnddd wtf they were drop dead embarrassing that I had to take  it down for everyone's sake, like dang it what was i thinking 😂😂

This whole blog is a mess anyway, I think i'm gonna need forever to make it look less humiliating😣

Anyway, 2015 huh..i guess time flew by pretty quick for me. Bunch of things happened since I last got here..- happy ones, heartbreaking ones, surprising ones, devastating ones, marvelous ones..I sure am not the same person I was back then, but that's what growing up is all about, right?(ew deep quote grosses me out sometimes) 

Oh and, FLASH NEWS: i finaaaalllyy went to a concert... A One Direction concert. (yay me) (i don't feel like sparing the details tho cos who cares)

Wonderful life of mine

Months passed, still on the same routine, except I'm on holiday right now. And well i'm in the last grade of high school which equals busy-year. For once in my life, I feel worried about education stuffs, like which college will I pass into. Being 12th grader sure isn't easy, especially with shits going on in your life. Thus let's just not discuss frustrating things like that.

...i give up. everything's frustrating for me. gotta go kill myself, bye.

Social life drives me nuts

Afternoon guys..or should I say morning..yeah whatever time you are in. I'm here to poor out some quotes that won't bugger off on my mind. Here it is:

"Never share/inform any awesome stuffs to others".

That quote rushes deep down in my brain that I keep thinking over and over. As I think further, I realize that "it'll end up as a common thing and you'll end up as a common person as well" yussh, finally this thing under my hair got me some deep thoughts. Well, besides, better keep to yourself than showing off, don't you think? That counts as a reason too. (But I do think we need to show off sometimes, or less: people will underestimate you.) Don't you get it..just imagine, us-finding some brill thing and the Chinese whispers go along until BOOOMM..it's everywhere. And as I say, it'll end up as a common thing, and tada you're nolonger special. I know it doesn't really make sense and might sound a littlebit selfish&bitchy, but hey I'm human too..

Referring to those ideas, nowadays kids often put and show all of their 'treasures' in the internet.You know what I mean? I'm just sick of their posting over and over about their oh-so-nice life pretending to be that oh-so-fashionable-cool-vintage-rich super model; which is nasty as hell. Not to mention those quotes they post -which SEEM contain a real wisdom- while they just friggin copy it and put in their bloody tweet, status whatsoever; just to impress others trying to be generous without giving credit, and I was like "yeah.. cool story, bro". Like bitch please, no one gives a damn to that total crap and fakeness.

Anyroad, sorry for moi using some rude words, I'm just gagging for those fake people, or should I say famewhores. K, I'm done. If you're actually reading this, I might give you a virtual hug from here. Now you may leave rotten here over my madness, go on with your life, and Bob's your uncle.

Blame the potato hormones

It's been months since I last posted here. And now I come to write this tiny little story of mine. Today at my English course, we were playing '20 Questions'. You know that game-where everyone is allowed to ask someone everything in total of 20 questions-since most of my friends are missing class due to their exams. The game went well, until it was my role to ask my teacher a question. And the question just popped out of my mind. I was like 'Are you married, Sir?' .Well technically, I've clearly known that he IS married since the ring always dazzles my eyes, but making sure won't hurt, aight? Then he was like 'Oh yes of course I am' And i was like "Is she a native of Indonesia? Or...?" And again he was like 'Aww yes she's Indonesian' and there came a hint of pink tint on his face. Yes, goddamnit he's blushing. That's it. That's the point where my heart broke into million piecesT______T

Oh before I go further about my pitiness, I'll let you know about my crazy obsession over foreigner, or so-called white guy. I don't know why or how I adore them with every fiber of my being. It was like when I see them, I feel like am about to explode. Yeah, that's how pathetic I am. PROBLEM IS: Being my really awkward self, it's almost not likely to speak with them. Goddamn, I can't even keep up on a conversation. Yes, my teacher is a white guy, and there's no need to explain why it happens to be 40-year-old-married-man(i might wanna add hot:p but that'll sound psycho-_-) whom I fancy.

Whoooopppp and there's one more. After I thought about stuffs, I just realized that I almost only fall for the older guy. Not just older, but MUCH older guy. I don't know what's wrong with me, or maybe I'll just blame the hormones for this. Like WHY CAN'T I HAVE MORE INTENTIONS TOWARDS PEERS?(۳ ˚Д˚)۳ If only, life would be so much simpler. Well in fact. i DO fall for a guy....guess who he is?......*insertdrumrollhere*......Neville Longbottom. Yea, you heard that right. The nerd, yet brave guy from Harry Potter. And it's a friggin fictional character. And once again, i'll declare THAT'S HOW PATHETIC I AM. I guess I might be destined to end up as a forever alone potato. An awkward one...

Recovering!

Happy Friday night fellow people!

..i haven't been posting since like...forever!

I just recovered from a dengue fucking fever. And bloody hell, it WAS NOT good, considering i had..no...have to drink some guava juice for God knows how much, and the thing is, i hate guava juice :'|

The feeling you get if you suffer a dengue fever....i can say,sucks. I was so weak. It was just like there were thousand sticks stabbed through your head and believe me, staying in the hospital with a needle stuck in your skin wasn't really a good idea:'''''|

Anyway i just went through all my blog journals, realizing how silly i was(i still am:p). But having your memories typed in a blog is kinda fun..and helpful! I also get my new blackberry smartphone, well ping me: 27f21c14 ✌

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Look who's back bitches..

Right right dont mind me(ˇ-ˇ")

What to dooo.....what to write.....i have no idea...unless you want to hear me babbling about my fuckedup life

Well then at this moment i'm having 34-day holiday straight! Teehee that's what i've been waiting for since the last holiday:p And considering i have my internet damn connection back..well yaknooo...

OOOOO!! And guess what...finally....finally...FINALLY....i watched 3d of the last part of harry potter!!!! But since there's the last..i mean last last part...my childhood is so over. On the bright side, i was super excited that i got to watch it. I exactly dont know how to feel. Seriously...i mean i'll never see the cute Weasley twins AND the sexy...scratch that..super sexy Malfoy guy♥♥(ʃ⌣ƪ)

I got some 'not so pleasing' news to me too...POTTERMORE site has been closed till God-knows-when

Stupid internet wouldnt be there when i needed it to register to that site...sucks

anywhooo, sometimes i wonder why cant i be in Hogwarts already?

if my school were Hogwarts i think i'd never find the reason why i hate school.

FFFFFUUU!!!

Exams, no biggie as long as you study and make sure you're prepared using the methods they taught you all year right? Right? No, not right. Teachers are evil psychotic beings who want to see you fail, or better yet writhe in pain before their sinister icy glares. I don't want them to teach me. I WANT TO GO OFF AND LIVE IN SOMEWHERE FAR AWAY(Englands such a good idea) WHERE I DON'T NEED THE EVILS OF EDUCATION AND EXAM ANXIETY.

Okay. I'm calm now and I'm back in the real world. I'll just take my exams and fail so badly that they'll send advice to me 24/7
Don't mind me just go on with your lives as if I never happened.