Wonderful life of mine

Months passed, still on the same routine, except I'm on holiday right now. And well i'm in the last grade of high school which equals busy-year. For once in my life, I feel worried about education stuffs, like which college will I pass into. Being 12th grader sure isn't easy, especially with shits going on in your life. Thus let's just not discuss frustrating things like that.

...i give up. everything's frustrating for me. gotta go kill myself, bye.

Social life drives me nuts

Afternoon guys..or should I say morning..yeah whatever time you are in. I'm here to poor out some quotes that won't bugger off on my mind. Here it is:

"Never share/inform any awesome stuffs to others".

That quote rushes deep down in my brain that I keep thinking over and over. As I think further, I realize that "it'll end up as a common thing and you'll end up as a common person as well" yussh, finally this thing under my hair got me some deep thoughts. Well, besides, better keep to yourself than showing off, don't you think? That counts as a reason too. (But I do think we need to show off sometimes, or less: people will underestimate you.) Don't you get it..just imagine, us-finding some brill thing and the Chinese whispers go along until BOOOMM..it's everywhere. And as I say, it'll end up as a common thing, and tada you're nolonger special. I know it doesn't really make sense and might sound a littlebit selfish&bitchy, but hey I'm human too..

Referring to those ideas, nowadays kids often put and show all of their 'treasures' in the internet.You know what I mean? I'm just sick of their posting over and over about their oh-so-nice life pretending to be that oh-so-fashionable-cool-vintage-rich super model; which is nasty as hell. Not to mention those quotes they post -which SEEM contain a real wisdom- while they just friggin copy it and put in their bloody tweet, status whatsoever; just to impress others trying to be generous without giving credit, and I was like "yeah.. cool story, bro". Like bitch please, no one gives a damn to that total crap and fakeness.

Anyroad, sorry for moi using some rude words, I'm just gagging for those fake people, or should I say famewhores. K, I'm done. If you're actually reading this, I might give you a virtual hug from here. Now you may leave rotten here over my madness, go on with your life, and Bob's your uncle.

Blame the potato hormones

It's been months since I last posted here. And now I come to write this tiny little story of mine. Today at my English course, we were playing '20 Questions'. You know that game-where everyone is allowed to ask someone everything in total of 20 questions-since most of my friends are missing class due to their exams. The game went well, until it was my role to ask my teacher a question. And the question just popped out of my mind. I was like 'Are you married, Sir?' .Well technically, I've clearly known that he IS married since the ring always dazzles my eyes, but making sure won't hurt, aight? Then he was like 'Oh yes of course I am' And i was like "Is she a native of Indonesia? Or...?" And again he was like 'Aww yes she's Indonesian' and there came a hint of pink tint on his face. Yes, goddamnit he's blushing. That's it. That's the point where my heart broke into million piecesT______T

Oh before I go further about my pitiness, I'll let you know about my crazy obsession over foreigner, or so-called white guy. I don't know why or how I adore them with every fiber of my being. It was like when I see them, I feel like am about to explode. Yeah, that's how pathetic I am. PROBLEM IS: Being my really awkward self, it's almost not likely to speak with them. Goddamn, I can't even keep up on a conversation. Yes, my teacher is a white guy, and there's no need to explain why it happens to be 40-year-old-married-man(i might wanna add hot:p but that'll sound psycho-_-) whom I fancy.

Whoooopppp and there's one more. After I thought about stuffs, I just realized that I almost only fall for the older guy. Not just older, but MUCH older guy. I don't know what's wrong with me, or maybe I'll just blame the hormones for this. Like WHY CAN'T I HAVE MORE INTENTIONS TOWARDS PEERS?(۳ ˚Д˚)۳ If only, life would be so much simpler. Well in fact. i DO fall for a guy....guess who he is?......*insertdrumrollhere*......Neville Longbottom. Yea, you heard that right. The nerd, yet brave guy from Harry Potter. And it's a friggin fictional character. And once again, i'll declare THAT'S HOW PATHETIC I AM. I guess I might be destined to end up as a forever alone potato. An awkward one...